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Here and There

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Here and There

333 - One year later
This makes me so happy it hurts in my chest. Bless you Testosterone, bless you.

333 - One year later

This makes me so happy it hurts in my chest. Bless you Testosterone, bless you.

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Guess what this guy did today?

I changed the gender marker and my name on my birth certificate! I went to my wee home village today and visited the town hall. The lady who helped me told me I was the third person who came for the change since the new law.

I am so excited! I will get new pictures tomorrow, go to my current village hall next monday to send in a request to get a new ID. With a bit of luck, I can pick it up in the beginning of September.

YEEHAH!

Top picture: Nathan pre-T & me pre-T (first sleep-over, 8 years ago)

Bottom picture: Me 10,5 months on T & Nathan 2,5 months on T

Time goes so fast. Four years of love, happiness, bickering and brotherhood. Nine years of friendship.

You are my one and only matey and I can’t wait to find out how the story continues.

Flying with an old ID - Experiences as a Transman

Last week I boarded two flights from the Netherlands to the UK and back. I am currently in the proces of getting a new ID with chosen name and male gender marker, but we booked the tickets earlier meaning I had to fly with my old ID.
The clinic where I am being ‘treated’ for genderdysphoria gave me a letter explaining why I may not look like the picture on my ID and don’t match the gender marker. I took these to enforce my story if anything would occur. I decided beforehand to show the letter next to my ID to prevent questions.

From Schiphol (The Netherlands) to Glasgow (Scotland)Checked my luggage and myself in beforehand. Went to Border Security and handed over my ID and letter. I decided to hand over the letter because I already had trouble identifying before I was on Testosterone. The B.S. guard had a look at both of them, but let me through without a question or word.
Next was Customs. Of all checks I dreaded this the most. I’ve heard some very positive as well negative stories about customs over the last few years. I didn’t wear a packer. I don’t feel the need to pack everyday and figured that it wouldn’t help if they choose to have me frisk searched.
The metal detector detected something so a stern looking guy told me to spread my arms and legs. He was very thorough (as a good customs officer should be), but as he came to my chest area, he stopped and asked me what the tough surface was. I replied with: ‘A Binder, I’m transgender.’ He just nodded. The thing that amazed me was the fact that he didn’t ask me if I wanted a female officer for the frisk. It made me feel rather uncomfortable, but I was quite relieved that I didn’t have to go through a body scan. However, it made me feel very dysphoric and self consious
On the way to Scotland I had to ID two more times.  No questions asked, no things said.

From Glasgow to SchipholOn the way back I had no problems with border security or customs whatsoever. I got one reaction to the letter at the check-in desk. The lady told me I changed a lot. Very decent, all very neat. Although I had the idea that the officers from the UK were more serious about it on the whole. They really checked my picture twice.
My stepmum had to go into the body scan, but she was the only one out of six.
I took of my walking boots because I thought that was the thing setting the metal detector off in the first case and it worked.

Conclusion/Tips
- It wasn’t that bad in the end
- If it makes you more comfortable, ask for a female officer to perform the frisk
- Ask for a letter from the person who’s prescribing you your hormones
- You can’t completely avoid frisks, but if you want to try your best,put on clothes with as little metal on it as possible. Take of boots too.
- You’re not the first one to fly :)

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Had a blast in Scotland. I had some minor hiccups with flying/border security and disphoria, but it was quite alright. I’ll get into details tomorrow after a good long sleep.

thoughtslikeskyscrapers:

Castlefest is over again and it was even better than last year. Amazing bands like Euzen, Wardruna, Rastaban and Corvus Corax, nice atmosphere and most of all: great company. I love how my group of friends can share and talk about everything. It’s perfectly balanced. You give and you get. The absolute highlight was on Sunday, the little two year old from two friends was at the festival too and danced, laughed and played with us all. He had the time of his life. And so did I. 
Now I’m at home feeling nothing but sadness and thankfulness. I’ll leave for Scotland in two days and wished I could trade it for a couple more days with my best friends. 
See you next year Castlefest! 

thoughtslikeskyscrapers:

Castlefest is over again and it was even better than last year. Amazing bands like Euzen, Wardruna, Rastaban and Corvus Corax, nice atmosphere and most of all: great company. I love how my group of friends can share and talk about everything. It’s perfectly balanced. You give and you get. 
The absolute highlight was on Sunday, the little two year old from two friends was at the festival too and danced, laughed and played with us all. He had the time of his life. And so did I. 

Now I’m at home feeling nothing but sadness and thankfulness. I’ll leave for Scotland in two days and wished I could trade it for a couple more days with my best friends. 

See you next year Castlefest! 

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Having a conversation with your stepbrother about beards.Connecting with your mum and stepmum because we go through the same gender/sexuality drama.. People being all happy about my facial hair.Festival up ahead next week and realising that it will be the last Castlefest with a binder.

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Having a conversation with your stepbrother about beards.
Connecting with your mum and stepmum because we go through the same gender/sexuality drama..
People being all happy about my facial hair.
Festival up ahead next week and realising that it will be the last Castlefest with a binder.

Pre Testosterone vs. 10 months

I was feeling very disphoric today, because after a months of cleaner eating, regular workouts and a new dose of hormones I didn’t see any changes. Made pictures anyway. And guess what, I can actually see a small difference compared to last month. Let alone compared to pre-T.

What’s wrong with my face though.

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Busy days ahead! Meeting up with lots of friends and preparing myself for my two trips coming up.

And can I add that since my hairline had changed my haircut looks so much better.