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Having a conversation with your stepbrother about beards.Connecting with your mum and stepmum because we go through the same gender/sexuality drama.. People being all happy about my facial hair.Festival up ahead next week and realising that it will be the last Castlefest with a binder.

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Having a conversation with your stepbrother about beards.
Connecting with your mum and stepmum because we go through the same gender/sexuality drama..
People being all happy about my facial hair.
Festival up ahead next week and realising that it will be the last Castlefest with a binder.

Pre Testosterone vs. 10 months

I was feeling very disphoric today, because after a months of cleaner eating, regular workouts and a new dose of hormones I didn’t see any changes. Made pictures anyway. And guess what, I can actually see a small difference compared to last month. Let alone compared to pre-T.

What’s wrong with my face though.

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Busy days ahead! Meeting up with lots of friends and preparing myself for my two trips coming up.

And can I add that since my hairline had changed my haircut looks so much better.

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Is this the real life….

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Is this the real life….

hey graham, you are so beautiful!!! srsly you made me blush. i think if i saw you on the street or something i would walk into a post or like drool all over myself

@Anonymous

Oh stop it you silly Anon. I think the only thing you’d do is squeel because everyone does. I’m that adorable apparently :)

Thank you for the flattering words Anon!

288 - Four days after injection

During the first period after the first Nebido shot I was very preoccupied with other stuff, but I noticed some things:

- My skin is very greasy, mostly my face. If I rub my hand on my forhead or nose it’s all shiny right away. Acne hasn’t increased (yet).

- Mentally I’m more stable. Has been quite up and down before my shot. Leveling out now

- Itchy bumcheek. This is fairly common with Nebido. On the spot where the nurse injected me I have a small bump (like a mosquito bite) and a thick and hard patch under my skin. And. It. Itches. Like. Hell. Scratching and touching makes it a lot worse. I found that Aloe Vera gel and Tea Tree creme worked a bit.

- Concentration is better again. I can work on stuff for longer periods in a row. It also makes it easier to actually start doing something. I never expected this when going on T for the first time, but since I have ADD it really comes in handy!

- Apetite is up. Prepared myself for this though! I’ve bought lots of apples and watermelon. Keeps me nice and filled up :)

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Awyes, my official letter from the hospital came it! I can go and change my name and gender on my ID when I want to now! Exciting stuff is happening!

I will have to wait till after my holiday in Scotland since the tickets are already booked, but it means I can actually graduate as Graham next year! No more awkward conversations in public transport and outing anymore.
First thing Im gonna do when I’m officially Graham to the law? Buying booze. Haven’t done that in ages.

Had my second shot of Nebido and talk with my psych yesterday. I lost some weight, gained some strength.

Hey Graham, just wanted to tell you that you are looking great!! I hope to be on T soon. I got referred to the doctor about a month ago so I'll be getting an appointment with him soon...I hope. Also, I was wondering if you have any advice for talking to parents about using my name and pronouns? My dad is starting to call me Jayden, which is good...but my mom isn't even trying.

@jay-porteous

Congratulations on your referral Jayden! That is really exciting :)

The best advise that I have on this is to be honest and direct towards your mom. Communication is key to them understanding what you go through. Explain to her why it is so important to you for her to call you by your preferred name and pronouns. Perhaps ask her why she isn’t right now! What I’ve noticed was that it was a bit ‘weird’ to actually start using a new name, but after they did for the first time it was a lot easier on them.

If it’s too difficult for you to tell/ask your mom yourself, you could always keep your dad in mind (or perhaps a family member you’re close with) to talk with her.

I hope this helped!

282 - Back in Action!
A little hiatus every now and then isn’t so bad. Life comes with struggles and fights, as I’ve learned. It’s good to know you can overcome things, or learn to deal with it. There are some challenges I’m still struggling with, but on a personal level I’m doing well.I’ve had my first appointment with my surgeon last week. She was very friendly, relaxed and answered all my questions. At the moment I had to take my shirt and binder off she quickly made a picture and was very discreet. It’s giving me a good feeling about this all! Surgery on its own freaks me out, but she really helped me making peace with it. 
We couldn’t set an actual date yet (in the Netherlands you have to be on T for a year to get everything covered), but it should be somewhere around the end of October/beginning of November. Right now I’m preparing myself: losing weight, training my torso and cutting down on smoking and drinking. I really want my chest to look the best it can possibly be :)

282 - Back in Action!

A little hiatus every now and then isn’t so bad. Life comes with struggles and fights, as I’ve learned. It’s good to know you can overcome things, or learn to deal with it. There are some challenges I’m still struggling with, but on a personal level I’m doing well.
I’ve had my first appointment with my surgeon last week. She was very friendly, relaxed and answered all my questions. At the moment I had to take my shirt and binder off she quickly made a picture and was very discreet. It’s giving me a good feeling about this all! Surgery on its own freaks me out, but she really helped me making peace with it.

We couldn’t set an actual date yet (in the Netherlands you have to be on T for a year to get everything covered), but it should be somewhere around the end of October/beginning of November. Right now I’m preparing myself: losing weight, training my torso and cutting down on smoking and drinking.
I really want my chest to look the best it can possibly be :)

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Almost nine months on T. Although it’s not going very fast, facial hair is visible now!

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Almost nine months on T. Although it’s not going very fast, facial hair is visible now!