Day 208

After an amazing Yoga session and food-wise a very good day yesterday, I feel absolutely great. I’ve been playing with Paleo/Raw food/Vegan/801010 for a long while and I decided to slowly find out which ones is best for me. I never liked meat a lot anyway, and I’m -mild case- lactose intolerant so vegan shouldn’t be too hard to do. In the end the mood you’re in reflects the food you eat.

I’m really excited for the next two weeks (because it’s holiday!): Volunteering, working out, cleaning/organising and getting old chores done! Did diner prep and snack prep for next week, so no mock-up possible.

By the way, if you ever get your hands on a box of dates like in the picture, take ‘em. They’re seriously the best thing on this planet. Apart from kittens and puppies ofcourse! :)

Day 207

Took body pictures two days ago and I seriously disgust myself. I’m quite done with the stupid excuses, giving up and not doing anything.

I’ve had all these moments to chance the way I look and I didn’t pull it through at none of these occasions. And here I am complaining about my health. Yeah, hypocrite.

I need to do this, before top surgery. I will never forgive myself for not looking the best I could.

18 y/o & Pre-T vs. 24 y/o and 6,5 months on T

Day 202

'The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt.'
- Max Lerner

Day 200!

'You changed a lot, but you are actually still the same person!'
Yes, just like I explained 20 times already. T won’t turn me into a longhaired and bearded, swearing, farting rough viking in 7 months. That’ll come when I reach my 1 year mark.

I should get paid for every person who says this to me. Seriously.

Day 197

Há, finally received the pictures of the presentation I gave some weeks ago. I was -uhm- 5 months on T here. Fully dressed bodyshot! We have one!

Had my Nebido injection this morning. No real pain whatsoever, but appearently my body doesn’t like needle that remain in the body for more than 10 seconds. Long story short, almost fainted, yep.

Day 195

Friday wasn’t all that bad in the end, mostly because the Endocrinologist decided there was no real need to do bloodtests. Score! Props to my partner though for being there for me and actually making sure I didn’t sort of unvoluntarily agreed by doing it anyway. He’s golden.
Got my Nebido too. It will cost about €120 every three months. It pricey, but worth it if it reduces the hectic ups & downs.
With the whole suringe stress being gone, I feel better already. I’m greatly enjoying all the beautiful blossom around the garden.

And hereby I’d like to congratulate my follower Ted with recieving Green Light! I hope the following time will be thrilling, exciting, relieving… all the positive things. Thank you for your support and kinds words.

Day 192

The last couple of days have been pretty rough. My body is just done with everything and it sortoff just gave up. First the flue, yesterday with a huge migrain. It just gave a big ‘STOP’ and even though I tried to get to school, there was no way of dodging it.

The house is still being renovated and it’s taking a lot longer than expected. This is the third week of refurbishing the roof, painting and building. No privacy, no rest, just a big mess. Next to that school has been very demanding, but I just gave up last week because I missed a lot of classes. It’s just not going as I’d like to and I just feel like sulking and sleeping. Not cool.

And ofcourse, the genderclinic decided that it would be a good idea to rescedule one of my appointments tomorrow. No biggy, but no I’m really not up for waiting three frigging hours in between two consults which will both take about 20 minutes. No.

Bloodworks will be done tomorrow, plus Endocrinologyst because I just want to switch to Nebido and get rid of these horrible moodswings.

End of rant.

Day 189
Got my new toy in the mail today! Since my skin is doing a lot better, mainly because I shave less often than I used to, I decided it was time to get my hands on a trimmer. It’s the Gilette Fusion ProGlide Styler. It has three combs and you can use it with normal shaving blades too. Both for showering and dry shaving/trimming. Paid €25,- for it.
I absolutely can’t wait to use it for the first time!

Day 189

Got my new toy in the mail today! Since my skin is doing a lot better, mainly because I shave less often than I used to, I decided it was time to get my hands on a trimmer. It’s the Gilette Fusion ProGlide Styler. It has three combs and you can use it with normal shaving blades too. Both for showering and dry shaving/trimming. Paid €25,- for it.

I absolutely can’t wait to use it for the first time!

Hey there, how are you doing? I was thinking of traveling to Netherlands since the country I live in is a piece of fuck little cunt bitch who doesn't allow any human being to be themselves (: and I wanted to know about how much did it cost you to do the transition/top surgery, if you are comfortable with answering that.

@the-blackstag

Hi! I’m totally fine answering this. It took a bit longer because I wanted to look some legal things up before answering.

In the Netherlands we have a health insurance system. It’s one of the best ones in the world, because a lot of all health related treatments/medications/etcetera are covered and you don’t have to dig deep into your wallet. First you need a basis insurance. Mine costs about €100 a month. The second thing is a something called ‘Eigen risico’ or ‘Own risk’ which basically means that you have to pay the first €350,- on your medical bills yourself. Third is the ‘Eigen bijdrage’. It basically means that there are a lot of things that aren’t completely covered so you have to pay a part or entirely yourself.

Hormone treatment itself costs me about €275 every year because I use Sustanon every two weeks. Androgel would be completely free (apart from the €350,- you have to pay, so that would make it about €225,- a year.

In the first column of the chart bellow you see the most common used hormones. In the last column the total costs for a whole year.
(Per=each, Dag=day, weken=weeks, maanden=months)

Tabel overzicht kosten testosteron

I’m not completely 100% sure what top surgery will cost since I haven’t had it yet and it’s difficult to find resources online. Most of the expenses will be paid by your insurance, but other things like your compression vest, gase and some other things you’ll need after surgery won’t be. You could try and ask Jonathan.

I suppose you already know that we only have three places who treat transidentifying persona, but at the moment there is a bit of a standstill as there isn’t enough funding from the governement to keep the biggest genderteam (at the VUMC Amsterdam) up and running. They don’t take on any patients untill the government decided what to do. Getting into the system is very limited and from what I heard from others, the waiting lists of the other hospital and the only Psychologist in the NL who can subscribe hormones are at least half a year to 16-18 months.

If you would like more info about Dutch health insurance, you can look it up right here.

I hope this makes some sense and answers your question.

Day 185

Rise and shine people, it’s a beautiful new day! Feeling a bit better although my nose is still full with booger and my throat itches like hell. Got a busy day ahead of me because I’ll be traveling to my mum and stepmum tomorrow to celebrate stepmum’s birtday! It’s gonna be awesome -and a wee bit scary- to see so many people I haven’t seen in years.

There is a huge To Do List next to me, so I’ll better start cracking. Today I like myself.